Ring around the rosies,

A pocket full of posies,

Ashes!

Ashes!

We all fall down.

Im sure we have all heard this beloved nursery rhyme, yes? But do you know what it actually means?

'Whenever children join hands in a circle, they sing this song of posies. The origin of this rose-colored ditty is something far more sinister — the Great Plague that swept through Europe in the 1600s. A rosy rash is the first symptom of the plague. The posies are herbs and spices carried to sweeten the air, and to place in the protective masks that were worn to fend off a thought to be 'air born illness' (that was actually spread by infectious rats/fleas)

'Ashes' refers to the cleansing process... where infected corpses were burned to prevent further spread of the plague.

AND/OR

Just prior to death, the aviolae sacs in the lungs rupture and coat with blood which then clots and dries. Right before the poor victim expires, they will often have a prolonged coughing fit during which they cough up flecks and particles of the dried “black”-appearing blood from their lungs. This was given the name “ashes” by the doctors of the time, who had no idea of how the lungs worked and no way to analyze the “ashes” that seemed to spew from the dying patients' mouths and define them as a blood product.

And of course we all fall down refers to the fact that everyone around was dying victim to this deadly plague and no one was safe... with the contaminated bodies everywhere

Isnt that nice? (/sick and disturbing and really sad x_x )

Its sad, but almost every nursery rhyme you can think of has a sick, morbid origin. Humpty Dumpty, that very loved egg we are all so fond of, he was actually a hunchbacked king who fell off his horse that he named wall 0_0, (seriously wth  ) And he was murdered by his enemies right on the spot (during a battle? i guess) and clearly couldnt get back up, as he was dead.

Theres a website that tells more nursery rhyme meanings
here. Its interesting reading...in a twisted kind of nightmare way x_0

The plague is a scary thing to think about though, with or without the rhyme...Could this be what its like if and when the bird flu strikes?

Currently Listening Stop Crying Your Heart Out By Oasis see related

The monster
 -by me

She lies awake in darkness
Drowing in her tears
The walls as thin as paper
They cant block out her fears

The screams increasing violence
The monster steps towards her door
Theres no way to escape it
When your homes no longer safe anymore

She buries her head in her pillow
And sees nothing but vivid black
When no ones there to save her
And theres no way to fight back

Eventually the screaming starts fading
As the monster grows bored of the fight
Destined to return again
As it happens every night

She cries and carves her tears out
In silent haunting pain
Nothing to do but wonder
Why shes left broken once again

Alone and left in pieces
Theres nothing to be said
When alcohol is the culprit
And the monster is your dad.

_________xMerry(/not) Christmas

Well my Christmas sucked, so very surprising.

Yesterday (Christmas eve) was ok for the most part, but definatly awkward.

So we went to my grandfathers house, and from there we went to some person im supposedly related to but dont remember's house for dinner. There were all these teens there around my age that i have a very faint memory of from like 10 years ago when i was around the age of 5 or 6 0_0 Awkward.

So then we were all eating and i made sure to stay invisble and only talk if someone talked to me, because thats just how i am. Then this lady was who was apparently staring at my hand was like 'OOOOH i get it now!' 0_0. If any of you know me (in person) you might have noticed the very random seeming safety pins i have on my shirts. See, most people would just cut a hole in their sleeve for a thumb hole but i just use safety pins.

See, thats normal for me so i dont even think about it, but this lady who had apparently never seen anyone do that before... thought it was a piercing 0_0. OOhkay then. It was funny.

And the food wasnt that great either. Some of it tasted weird... like... wine. It was sick, but they told us all before that we had to finish everything on our plates so i didnt know what to do besides eat it anyway x_x. I later found out that it wasnt wine in the food at all. It was freaking Burbon which is way stronger than wine 0_0. x_x *gags*

Oh yes and my favorite part about this, shall we call it, family reunion was when i saw this lady grab my grandfathers butt. Old people action oooh yes. They are like 70 0_0 Sure made my day.

That same lady also asked me weird questions. The kind you never want to answer but do anyway just to be nice, you know. She asked how old i was, what grade i was in, if i was driving yet, or dating, and i was like 16, junior, no, yes, blah blah. And the best part was when someone else was asking me questions and she randomly seemed to yell over everyone, no but shes dating! I was thinking heh, yeah, shoot me in the head someone please :) It was embarrasing. But thats kind of what i expected.

Then today we went to my grandmothers house where i got presents, yes, boring. But the best part was the stocking stuffers. I got a dvd, playstation game (that i'll never play but it was still cool), candy (obviously), other stuff, and the most awesome pen ive ever gotten in my life. It came with an extra ink cartridge and batteries, lights up different colors, oh yeah and did i mention it had a 100 dollar bill wrapped around it? Pretty awesome im all rich now :]

And then we got home and i was all depressed, partly because the one person who could make my christmas happy was the one person i dont get to see until tomorrow :-/ and because as always my brother got a present that was carefully planned out, that they took time picking out and put thought into and it seemed like they just picked up the first thing they saw for me. I did get these 2 pairs of earrings that are real gold and real stones though which made me happier :]

And just to make things even better, when i went to clean my room a few minutes ago i accidentally stepped on my freaking straightner and broke it in half. Joy. But its ok, it was only like 60 bucks anyway :'( And i dont need straight hair...maybe i want to look like i got electrocuted x_x

Well my Christmas sucked. My plan for next year: Dont get out of bed. I hope it was better for everyone else.  And now there are only 6 days of the year 2005 left. *_* Here's some random pictures i took while in Longview. Merry (or not so merry) Xmas everyone. __xUntil Later <3

Currently Listening I Brought You My Bullets You Brought Me Your Love By My Chemical Romance Demolition Lovers see related

x_________Random

I have absoutly nothing to write about.

I dont like Xmas.

I no longer like typing 'Christmas' because i like calling it xmas better.

I would rather skip Xmas and go straight to Halloween.

Getting presents usually makes me feel bad because either their present is better than the one i got them or i didnt get them anything and i just feel worse.

I have a really hard time trying to act happy for people, when in reality im jealous beyond all reason that they get way better presents than i have ever gotten in my LIFE, and to them its just like any other xmas present.

My computer sucks. And is making this grrring noise.

My best friend is moving and i want to cry.

Yet im estatically happy for other reasons.

Its been forever since ive been happy... back when i was to dumb to know i wasnt happy.

My mom still acts like i have a bed time.

Its already 5 in the morning and i havent gone to bed yet.

And im not tired.

This entry sucks.

And i dont care

____________x

Well, tomorrow (well, actually today (christmas eve)) im going with my mom and brother to my grandfathers house which is like 3 hours away. Its not that i dont want to see him (which i really dont) but he is the kind of person with.. well.. money. You have to dress nice just to eat dinner, you cant wear solid black or your a devil worshiper, if you say something as bad as 'this sucks' you might as well be a serial killer, and i have to suffer through it because he gives me xmas money  

But i hate it. Not being able to dress or act like i normaly would... its like temporarily hiring a clone to fill your place for a day.  Which isnt a bad idea btw.

-Until i update again_____x

<3

Quotes:

Love is when     u miss him
    even before he leaves when you 
 could listen to him talk all night and
 never get tired of hearing his voice
    when the sound of his name
     sends chills down your spine
          and you see his smile
               the second you
                  close your 
                     eyes

Everyone wants happiness...yet no one wants pain.
But you can’t have a rainbow without a little rain

SUICIDE:
it's a way of saying
"YOU CANT FIRE ME GOD I QUIT"

&& when I say I love you
you have no idea how much I mean it

these days..;
everyone is depressed,
no one cares about your personality anymore.
there are few songs with out cuss words.
you bring up the Lord & people look at you weird.
you stand up for someone & get called a bad name
& the type of clothing you wear describes you.
how much money you have gives you your popularity.
everyone breaks each others hearts & doesn`t think much of it
you can become so lonely.. and no one would notice

Currently Listening I Brought You My Bullets You Brought Me Your Love By My Chemical Romance Demolition Lovers see related

Dont you just love staring at a blank, create a new Weblog Entry page not having any idea what to fill it with? You just kind of have to ramble on (kind of like im doing now) until something exciting or worth talking about comes up. And if it doesnt, then you can always make up something.

So my house burnt down today and i was on Oprah for being the first Egyptian to write an xanga entry on the moon. Lucky me.

(And the sad part is... there was probably at least one person somewhere out there reading this that believed that)

So anyway... things are going good for me, because of reasons :] <3 And school is getting harder but its not nearly as bad as it could be...the semester exams arent even that bad, the only one im worried about is Spanish. Yo no hablo espanol. But the other classes are easy, all you have to do is memeorize the reviews, for the most part anyway. I had the english one today and i think i did good on it. The teacher gave us a paractice essay before the test, and the topic was 'What is your favorite thing about the holidays?' And she was going to pick the best few essays to send in to the paper or something like that. I didnt care so i wrote my paper 2 classes before i have english, and it took seriously no longer than 5-10 minutes. And she picked mine I must have some mad writing skillz

AND as if this entry isnt exciting enough already, Ive got a new favorite song  Demolition Lovers, by MCR. Its SO sad, and makes so much sense. To me it sounds like it is talking about this guy who loves this girl so much that he is willing to die with her, or for her. Because he cares about her so much that his life isnt worth living without her. Its so sweet. And so sad. And i know exactly how he feels.

Demolition Lovers- By My Chemical Romance

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running

But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...

And now im tired of typing so, (the end), until the next time i feel like updating this stupid thing___x